After all...

Salam...

Its been such a longgggggggggggggg time I havent update my blog.. So many things happened.. Sampai lupa ada blog sendiri...

My life... still d same.. being a wife & mother, watching my baby girl, Rees grow up each day... She is resemblance of her Abah... She's now going to be 6 months this 14th december.. Changing to solid food, insyaallah.. Hmm da pandai merajuk skrg... Glad to see her development. da pandai meniarap & berguling& mengesot too! tak boleh lepas sekejap, she'll be every corner of the house.. Her looks changing too, more towards feminine... kehkehkeh.. puas pakaikan dress cantik2, still orang ingat dia BOY.. aku tensi! :D

this is me with BABY REES at 4 MONTHS ++

Well.. I'm now working, one of the newest automotive college somewhere in Cheras... da masuk 2 weeks.. so far ok.. cuma ada difficulties to find more students... They hired me because I've got several years of working in education industries... quite relaxing job too.. tapi tak tahule bila classes da start nnti.. Ooo yes, I just resigned from an interior design company about a month ago before I joined this company... had problem coping up with the environment, paling tak tahan asyik balik lambat sampai malam and kene marah ngn boss.. Balik rumah pon asyik STRESS je.. always complaint about what I've gone thru for the day to WN...So.. X HEALTHY la kan? LEBIH BAIK QUIT... ALHAMDULILAH REZEKI ALLAH TA'ALA ADA KAT MANA2..

Being a wife, mother & working at the same time, its not an easy task... I always asked other working wife-mother for their tips & exp espc managing the time.. I wonder my late mom coped up very well before.. I'm still doing at my best.. Kdg2 tu bila da penat mixed my mood swings , rasa macam too much too handle... But WN being WN... byk sabar & somtimes tegur me apa yg patut.. keh keh keh.. Sometimes he suggested a lot of other options to ringankan beban esp doing the remeh-temeh like laundry & house cleaning.. I hope bibik is coming soon.. i really need assistance...

Pssttttt.. Rees Insyaallah will jadi KAKAK next year... :D

So its about lunch time, I GTG.. sambung lain kali.. ta-ta! :D

Our 1st wedding anniversary.. :)

Salam.. huhuhu...

Asyik bercerita pasal anak je dlm blog lately...

09082009..genap 1 tahun for me & WN as a husband & wife.. how time flies it is kan? Honestly, byk jugak things that we gone thru together within a year.. Tak sedar da setahun.. the good and the bad times too.. so far alhamdulilah we both still strong.. And, I bet there are more to come.. But I will not putus doa for His blessing... Hoping for many more happiness to come for the 2 of us.. eh.. lupa.. for the 3 of us now, dibukakan pintu rezeki, kuatkan semangat kami berdua sebagai suami isteri, di jauhkan penyakit & malapetaka yg bahaya, dilindungi dari segala fitnah hidup dan mati, dikurniakan cahaya mata yg solehah serta celik pandai & last but not least.. jodoh berpanjangan dan diberkati hingga akhirat, InsyaAllah.. Wah panjangnya doa.. sangat specific kan?? My dad always remind me, kalau nak doa, kene mintak 'specific' and jangan putus doa, doa apa yang kita nak betol2, tapi kene ikhlas dan niat kerana TUHAN yang satu... Sebabnya DOA tu Ibu segala Ibadah.. InsyaAllah, HE will always answer to your prayers and HE won't disappoint you ..

Our 1st anniversary celebration??

Hmmm.. simple je, xde apa sgt.. nak jalan jauh agak limited sebabnya sekarang ni H1NI disease, and our baby Rees pon belom genap 60hari.. So for the sake of it, we decided not to pegi tmpat yg agak crowded with ppl.. BTW, WN cooked smthig special yesterday.. Beef Stew, English style ok... :D Then ptg sikit jalan2 we took a stroll at the Titiwangsa Lake with our baby Rees.. Eventhough its a public place, but its not covered.. So Alhamdulilah it was a nice evening together, tak panas & tak hujan .. We had a chat at the warung nearby, talking whats our plan in future.. everything went smoothly that day.. Simple kan..?

So my dearest WN.. If you are reading this, Happy 1st anniversary.... Hope we will cherish all the moments together, the good & bad time..Thanks for loving & being so understanding hubby and most important is..
Thanks for accepting me for who I am..

Maafkan if my bahasa kadang2 agak kasar to u which sometimes I sedar & tak sedar these days, I know u won't mention it because u berhati2 with my situation now.. hehehehe...

::Love u always.. ::

Psst: I dont know why, I asyik panggil u Abah lately instead of Bee..

wondering if all mothers out there gone thru what I've gone thru..

Salam...

Nothing much to say... Rite now, all I can say my energy level is so low each day.. Tak tahu smpai bila buleh tahan with this condition... Rees have been quite demanding lately, nak kene angkat selalu.. Bile letak je, she will be crying asking me to carry her.. My arm da rasa lenguh, kdg2 makan pon da x menentu skrg.. Probbly selalu dimanjakan by her aunties... Ni pon 'curi time' to tulis blog to let out my feelings as Rees is sleeping, & me waiting for my bro to fetch me for dinner to my dad's place... Da tentu malam ni Rees will be waking up through out the nite, she's been sleeping since 6pm after her bathtime... I can imagine what a nite will be for me to go thru... ::sigh::

Due to my current condition, being 'zombie' all the time, I don't know whether it DOES lead to my emotional reaction.. I wonder does all mothers out there go thru what I go thru rite now.. Sometimes i just want to take a time off, because I have no space for myself... Aku rasa aku da x kenal diri aku eversince ada anak.. I'm not saying I'm a cruel mother, but that's how I felt rite now..

Apa yg org cakap, even WN , somtimes I just can't take it... It does makes me feel worst, hopeless & useless all the time... I tried my best to holding on but I'm just a human being, I do breakdown sometimes... I do feel as if I'm falling apart, but deep down I always say to myself, my baby needs me, and that's what keeps me moving on, but sampai bila??

Yes, I admit, today is a hard day for me to go thru... Its just one of my bad hair day.. Lately, selalu sgt ada bad hair day.. Do I need help?? Or is it another /normal thinggy that all new mothers hv to thru?? ::sigh again::

WN admit that he sometimes 'terasa hati' with the things I said to him.. Ntahla.. aku pon ada jugak terasa... Wondering if I've been asking too much?? or is it me being too sensitive or demanding?? My time is very tight attending to Rees.. I have no words to say.. speechless.. I hate this feeling.. Fikiran pon start kusut, really cannot think straight... :(

I hope I will get over with this feeling yang tak best langsung ni..

On my own...

Salam..
Its been 5 days I'm here in KL ,at my lovely home... Its great to be home.. I'm still in my 32 days of confinement... Bila balik rumah sendiri, semua kene buat sendirila, kecuali masak.. Luckily, WN will prepare for me after he got back from work.. Esoknya makan lauk yg sama, reheat dalam microwave je.. At nights, we take turns bangun to feed Rees, this part I like the most, because masa staying at my mertua's, malam la paling sakit... Phewww.. Husband Mithali :P

Rite now, my baby is sleeping.. Tghari ni tidur pulak dia... Puas kejutkan still dia buat 'don-no' x nak bangun.. Semalam Mama Ngah (JH, her aunty, my sister) came with her kids.. Wah, Rees di layan, di peluk , di dukung by Mama Ngah... Lama jugak la, malam tu Rees selalu merengek minta diangkat... Letih aku & WN dibuatkannya... Luckily she fall asleep around 12am... Then, Rees hanya bangun evry 2-3 hours nak susu je..

oooo ya.. the house da berwajah baru.. WN rearranged the house.. Habis berubah , a better arrangement actually, nmpak luas than before...

Eversince ada anak... I'm always busy... busy attending her, mcm skrg she's sleeping, so dapatla relax kejap & online on the internet. Sometimes, I missed my meal... nak mandi pon, I'll make sure I feed her & put her to sleep so that I can carry on..

Malam tadi I start feeding her with new formula... WN & I tried to feed her 'Nestle Lactogen'.. We fed her with S-26 before, but as her Mak Su dia kata, "Mahal S-26 tau, skrg x lah terasa, da besar sikit nnti, kene beli pack 2 pack besar monthly" Hmmm.. Alhamdulilah, so far till now, it seems Rees has no problem taking the new formula.. Harap2 the new formula suits he, manala tahu kut-kut tak sesuai pulak nantikan..

Oops my baby is awake pulak.. So continue later.. Banyak nak tulis ni.. Sabarrrrrr :D

Everyday I'm a zombie-mom!

Salam...

Phewww... Eversince ada baby.. mmg x pernah cukup tidur... Setiap mlm akan berjaga setiap 2 jam.. My baby nak susu.. Kdg2 bile time nk expressed my own milk terus tak tido selama 3 hours... My friends used to remind me while I was pregnant before "Mas, u better get enough sleep before the baby comes out!" Masa tu endah dgn x endah je apa member2 ckp... Yelah x pernah merasa lagi jaga mlm...kan??

Each nite terasa hubby tiada di sisi... Yelah sejak berpantang, WN is a weekend husband/daddy.. So kalau dia smpai Jumaat, mlm tu he will take over the 'stand-by-mode-duty' like feeding Rees & changing her diapers.. Barulah aku buleh tido utk beberapa jam.. Itupon terpaksa bgn & spend abt 1 hour to express my milk..

This coming Sunday, I'll be back to KL.. Balik rumah sendiri.. Cukup sebulan berpantang di rumah mertua.. lepas ni pantang la sendiri... Tak tahu la mcm nanti uruskan segalanya dgn sendirinya espc bila laundry time.. Kat sini aku di layan sperti puteri raja, kain baju semua ada org buatkan... Harap2 I could manage well bila di rumah sendiri nanti.. Nasib baik we decided to 'upah' his aunty to cook for me everyday... Kalau x, tak tahu la mcm nak manage semuanya nanti..

Rees semakin sihat .. alhamdulilah.. setiap hari I'm learning new things being mother... The most exciting moment is taking Rees for bathtime!! Itssss so stress reliefing... Her bathtime creates the bonding btween me & her stronger... Rees really enjoyed her moment too! :D

Rite now sejak brestfeed, I got myself hungry easily.. I consumed a lot of food lately... Dulu masa mula2 bersalin, aku ada control my food intake, tapi sejak kene 'sound' with my in laws, aku da makan byk.. To them, I'm eating for 2 person... So x payah nak mengada-ngada control makan! Yela simptom NAIK BADAN is one of the scariest thing for each women epsc lepas bersalin... But I will control my diet bile Rees d 2-3months old...
WN advise for me to start diet masa pregnant dulu2 bila da abis pantng nanti... Let's see mana yg brjaya utk my diet!

So okla.. my baby da bunyi alarm, tanda nk susu la tu.. I'll write more soon.. Perhaps I should put the latest pict of me & Rees later... hehehehe...

Seing her growing up day by day..

Rees now 19 days old today.. kejap nak masuk 3 weeks old.. Rasa mcm baru smlm 'meneran' dia keluar dari perut.. Hahahaha...

A lot of changes I see in her lately like :
1. Her look: Totally 100% muka Abahnya.. Xde langsung muka aku... Hmmm... Anyway muka dia berubah setiap hari..
2. Her cheek: Looks chubbier now.. byk minom susu.. Minom setiap 2 jam pagi & malam..
3. Her movements: Very active.. Selalu gerakkan tangan & tendang2 kaki when she's awake.. Skrg bila tak dibendung da sibuk2 nak mengiring ke kiri and capai apa yg dapat di capai epsc during changing her diapers.. Skrg da pandai sepak botol susu when she finished minom...
4. Her weight: Last week she weighed about 3.5kg... Skrg ni mesti la naik lagi...
5. Her favourite time: Tgh malam ajak main or borak.. Skrg dia da suka mandi sbb mandi air suam.. best la kan! And of course bila Abahnya ada di sisi! :D
6. Her nightmare!!: Still x nak suckle my breast.. This the time where she will cry like nobody else business! So I can't breastfeed her direct.. kene bagi pakai botol.. ::sigh:: That's why I have to perah susu setiap 3- 4 jam sehari..

Apa lagi... O ya.. the day when she was born, I can barely see her eyebrow.. Mmg takde bulu kening, macam kene cukur.. Yesterday while I was feeding her, I saw a thin black line appearing on her forehead.. Hah da ada bulu kening! Alhamdulilah...

So far, she's doing good.. Still xde buat hal like menangis kuat2 or meragam.. Mamanya pon still adjusting with the time to handle her.. Byk lagi yg Mamanya still need to learn... Its a matter of experiencing it everyday.. & the challenge of coping up.. Buleh sabar ke tak...

Ok that's all I can share at this moment, still a lot more to go.. My mom in law dok risau I mengadap PC/monitor while writing this blog.. She will say like "Mas, don't strain your eyes, pegila relax!" hehehehe

Salam.. Have a nice weekend! :)

My precious, Baby Rees :)

Salam all!

I'm back.. Still in my confinement... I'm now in Seremban at my in law's place.. Kira berpantang di sini.. Will return to KL by 11th or 13th July for good... Too bad my mom in law not so well lately.. She got some limitation in her movements , ditambah her maid has to go back to Indonesia for a month.. So kira 'patah kaki' la my mom in law to jaga me & Baby Rees..

OO yess.. Baby Rees.. That's what me & WN called our new baby..

So far I'm enjoying the moments taking care of rees.. Being the 1st time Mom, its not an easy job... Its such a new thing in my entire life!! Especialy perubahan waktu e.g tak cukup tido.. :) Luckily, baby rees is not a colic baby... Xde melalak tak tentu pasal.. Merengek hanya hendak susu or she feels uncomforable with her 'bekalan' in her diapers. Hehehe.. Alhamdulilah me & WN being blessed to have baby Rees with us...

Eventhough I'm enjoying the moment with Rees, I'm still coping up the task being a mother.. Thank God, for a meantime my in laws being taking a good care of me so far..

Ok now, how shall I start... macam mana baby rees bule keluar or in the other proper sentence, how do I deliver baby Rees?? :)

Phewww.. Terus terang I vaguely remembered what happened before or during the time I delivered baby Rees.. My hubby did mentioned every single moment how & what I've gone before & during the delivery... He was there throughout the day and nite with me.. Seriously.. I tak berapa ingat.. because... I was in a great pain for almost one whole day.. In medical term they call it as ' the contraction pain before labour' or 'labour pain''.. Sekarang baru aku faham kenapa orang selalu kata, sakit nak bersalin adalah dikatakan sebagai 'Mother of all the pain'.. Memang sakit tak ingat.. Sakit yg tidak boleh di bayangkan atau diceritakan sesia[a.. Hanya perempuan yg hendak bersalin sahaja yg akan rasa sakit yg Tuhan bagi itu... Phewwwww..

:: kalau sesiapa ingin tahu lebih lanjut about what I've gone thru, u may go to this link::
  Then they were 3 by WN

Alhamdulilah setelah 'berperang' dgn menahan sakit contraction selama lebih dari 9 jam, akhirnya Tuhan telah memberi keizinan, kemudahan & tenaga untuk aku bersalin secara normal.. Memang aku tak sangka aku telah dapat melahirkan baby Rees secara normal..

Mas Hareessa Nokman bt Muhammad Wafa dilahirkan pada 14 Jun 2009 (Ahad), pada 6.34am di Hospital Ampang.. beratnya 3.05 kg..

After battling with the great pain, baby Rees selamat dilahirkan.. Tiba2 hilang semua sakit.. Sejuk hati memandang pada insan kecil ni .. Somemore aku sudah menjadi Mama and WN sudah pon menjadi Abah... Both responsibilities sudah secara automatik and pon bertambah... Our priorities has changed now... Semua focus beralih kepada anak :)

Rees now aged 15 days old today.. I'm still learning being the 1st time mom... trying all the best to take care, educate and nurture her as she is now my daughter.. Wah aku da ada anak!! Memang x sangka..manusia yg serba kekurangan seperti aku, Tuhan masih memberi peluang dan rezeki untuk memikul tanggungjawab sebagai Ibu...

Sampai disini sahaja utk entry kali ini.. perhaps aku akan ceritakan lagi those great moments seeing Hareessa growing up each day.. :)

Salam...

Alhamdulilah, finally its a GIRL... Mas Hareessa Nokman bt Muhammad Wafa

14 June 2009 6.34pagi Ahad..

I finally delivered a baby girl..Mas Hareessa Nokman bt Muhammad Wafa


Nantila aku akan cerita detik2 sebelum dan selepas melahirkan insan comel ni...

Bored.. Annoyed.. (Wish I could have a better word)

Salam again.. Its Friday June, 5th 2009... I'm at home (still)

I feel better than yesterday, still sakit but not that bad.. OO yess.. I'm having this lower abdomen pain, u can call it as period pain through out the day since semalam pagi.. It started during early morning yesterday.. I did complaint to WN when I'm about to do my Subuh Prayer. At first it was a normal contraction (braxton hicks) every 30-35minutes.. It went away by 7am...

Then by 7.40am, after I past motion, I got somekind of 'period pain' just after I got out from the toilet... Its quite persistent & feeling different kind of pain this time... Then WN woke up & ready to work, I told him that I feel 'funny' about the pain... Sebelum ni, mmgla ada jugak terasa sakit senggugut but not as sharp as this time... So he asked me, what shall we do now... Both of us thought probably it is time kut for delivery.. So I told him we can go to the nearest clinic (our fav' clinic) by 9am if the pain still going on.. Perhaps, jalan 'highway' for baby to deliver da bukak kut.. So he agreed, straight away called his colleauges informing them that he'll be late to office today..

I took a shower..then get ready to clinic that morning... Sampai je clinic tu, ramai jugak org menunggu.. We just chat while waiting.. Suddenly the contraction came again while we were waiting.. Then after 30minutes, my name been called up, meanning its my turn.. Masuk je kat bilik doktor tu, I told what happened since this morning, then she decided to check my 'highway' da buka ke belom.. Too bad, Tuhan belom izinkan lagi.. She said only one finger je yg boleh masuk, meaning jalan mmg masih tutup.. Only the baby's head mmg da turun ke bwah and about to entering & pushing the ligament muscle... Tapi belom masuk soket lagi (meaning belom engage lagi).. She said that's the reason why I feel the pain, so called the 'period pain'.. I felt a bit upset sbb belom lagi nak bersalin, but thank god that the baby is about to exit in several days, perhaps 2 weeks kot... Pheewwww da penat menunggu...

Balik rumah.. WN went to work after he dropped me at our place.. the pain still there.. all the time.. tak buat apa sangat.. only resting... been sms'ing my sister and friends asking theor advice what to do next... Most of them replied 'Period pain?? Biasala tu, da nak dekat bersalin.. InsyaALLAH'.. But, how soon is soon?? Only GOD knows when...

Today... still at home while updating this entry..

To tell u the truth.. I started to feel annoyed.. bored of waiting.. rasa down pon jugak.. the level of excitement suddenly goes down... Tiba-tiba rasa some sort of xde semangat like I used to... Wish I could have a better word to say it, hope it doesn't effect my baby inside... weekends starts tomorrow.. lagila tak tahu nak buat apa... ooo GOD! pls help me & give back the strength to move on... Berikan semangat seperti sebelom ini... InsyaALLAH..

Masih menunggu hari...

Salam all...

Today.. its 2nd June 2009... Tuesday.. I'm now 38weeks in my pregnancy..

Last nite, its such a horrifying nite for me.. Being attacked by 'Braxton Hicks' contraction twice.. The first one I couldn't remember what time it happened, sbb last nite I mengantuk sgt & penat setelah brp mlm tak boleh tidur nyenyak, the 2nd one was around 5am.. da nak subuh.. by 6.15am it went away... I was terrified because manalah tahu da tiba masa baby da nak keluar...Phewwww.. rupanya belom lagi, cuma nak bagi momentum je..

Ramai org advice, da nak tunggu hari bersalin, dok je kat umah tu.. tak payah nak ngengada merayap sangat.. But I just IGNORE it... Borring dok rumah... Biarkan baby x selesa dok dlm perut & dia x sabar nak keluar dari my tummy... Tapikan, tak sangka pulak penangan 'kaki bengkak' really limiting my movements these days.. Tak buleh berdiri lama2 tu yg boring.. :( Tapi takpela, harap2 its a sign nak dekat delivery.. InsyaALLAH :)

At this stage, WN ada mention ramai yg berpengalaman being pregnant will jadi 'doktor/bidan' advising me here & there.. So pasangkan telinga je.. hehehe...

Satu lagi yang tak tahan kaki membengkak since last Friday.. I noticed lepas byk jalan on Saturday, the swelling getting bigger.. Sempat lagi jalan2 at Pavilion, planning nak tgk wayang kat situ, hmmm sorry... the line orang beli tiket wayang macam nak beli tiket bola! :( so we patah la balik to Ampang MBO. We managed to buy tiket cerita 'Terminator: Salvation'.. Then makan MCD @ Ampang Point for lunch! Wah!! WN bagi green light mkn MCD setelah beberapa puasa bulan x makan!! TQ & I'm happy , terasa sangat nikmat when I had the 1st bite.. Makan Double Cheeseburger u! Hahahaha! Before that, while jalan2 at Bukit Bintang Plaza b4 off to Ampang, ada orang tu sempat beli perfume baru.. HUGO BOSS ELEMENT u!! hehehehe.. I like the smell.. mmg sesuai ngn orangnya kan..?

On Sunday, sempat lagi 'merengek' to WN to bring me to his old school to watch Tatu, its a 100 years celebration VICCB (VI Cadet Core Band).. I know he was reluctant to bring me there, yelah manala tahu celebration macam ni mesti crowd ramai giler orang yg datang, worrying takut xde tempat duduk.. Alhamdulilah, kuat kan kudrat tenaga, kaki & badan, WN agreed to bring me there and ada jugak tempat duduk yg sesuai for me to watch it... The show was great!! TQ so much sayang bringing me there...

Everyone that I know, incld friends & families dok query dah bersalin ke belom.. Everyone seems to be excited to see my 1st baby.. rasa macam celebrity pulak anak aku ni.. Baby ni pulak x buleh nak expect tinggi sangat, nanti mesti dia dok main2 teka teki, saja nak test kesabaran Mama & Abah kan! Anyway, Mama & Abah are counting the days each day waiting for your arrival dear! Setiap hari dok cakap ngn baby pujuk dia keluar.. Harap2 Tuhan akan takdirkan hari & waktu yang sesuai utk brsalin.. :) InsyaALLAH...

GOD is GREAT!

Salam again...

Last week was the horrifying week for both WN & me... Bukannya apa.. dua2 da expect & mentally prepared for c-section.. But God answered to our prayers... Last Friday, 22nd May'09 we went to O& G clinic at Ampang Hospital for appointment.. The doctor found out that our baby's head has finally turned down to a normal position.. Alhamdulilah, no more breech & TAK JADI BEDAH la.. the doctor checked the baby's development thoroughly through the ultrasound machine.. I'm now da nak masuk 37weeks.. One more thing is that kepala baby betol2 da kat bawah, tunggu masa nak engage/lock je.. So the doctor said, skrg ni tunggu masa nak brsalin... Bila2 masa je tau! I was terrified when she said that...

Both of us was so happy.. reliefed & the most greatest word was ALHAMDULILAH.. God is great!

We had quick lunch soon after balik dari hospital... Masa tgh makan tu, I jst got this 'firasat' that agaknya I'll be delivering next Friday, 29th May'09.. I told WN about it.. But his feeling saying its gonna be earlier than that. Takpe kita tunggu.. Hehehehe..

Then, later dalam pukul 4.30ptg.. we planned to meet up my bapak angkat, Pak Ungku.. da lama plan nak jumpa dia, but seems dia always out of town lately... So rezeki SB & WN's friend, BK dapat jumpa bapak & pegi berubat 'spritually' ... terubat rindu bila jumpa bapak & ibu.. the last time I see them masa 3-4 months ago.. Lama jugak berubat, sb ramai patient, we finished abot 9pm.... Itupon bapak insisted us to come that Friday jugak, sbb kalau pegi Sabtu or Ahad, byk patient datang secara 'walk-in'.. So its gonna be a long queue la kan... FYI, pak ungku said thru his 'firasat' too, he said i akan bersalin by Monday (which is today la).. so I just leave it to GOD, Dia yg berkuasa atas segalanya...

Oooo yess almost lupa nak mention... I received a wonderful gift on the same day from... who else?? WN la.. :) Nak tahu hadiah nya..? xpela tak payah nk tunjuk kat sini.. Its a wrist bracelet, its beautiful anyway.. Its a token and symbol for a new beginning of our BIG FAMILY! Thanks & I love u dear!

So that's all for today... BTW, I got a contraction last nite at 2.45am.. then got it again by 3am.. and it stopped by 15-20minutes later.. Told WN about it, may be its just a false alarm... So now tgh tunggu kalau2 ada contraction lagi.. :) Just that everything will be fine. Tuhan akan takdirkan masa yg sesuai utk aku melahirkan zuriat ini... InsyaALLAH... Amin...

22nd May'09.. Hari penentuan...

Tak ada apa sangat nak di tulis...

Hanya menghitung hari untuk 22 Mei 2009... hari penentuan untuk di bedah atau tidak... huhuhuu.. Still hoping miracles to happen.... :)

Lately.. I got mild period pain quite frequent... i read a lot about pregnancy/ delivery articles.. Its a sign that I'm closed to delivery... My bulging tummy getting bigger &it seems da ke bawah.. Berat sangat.. Sakit belakang almost everyday.... My movements pon da limited.. Hmmm... Espc nak membongkokkan badan... Bila time solat da solat secara duduk atas kerusi.. Selalu tersalah, sebab confused antara iqtidal, sujud & duduk antara sujud.. selalu kena start solat bila da confused... hehehehe.. Tapi i still do some light exercises like walking everyday...

I'm packing my stuff slowly sebab nak berpantang di Seremban, at my in laws 's place.. Packing pakai beg besar terus... yela almost 2 months will be there...

So kadang2 tu dok pujuk & cakap with baby inside suruh dia turun... Yelah time ni nak develop bonding at least dia kenal suara parents dia.. Other than that, I just keep on praying & teruskan amalan2 given from both my dad & my inlaws..

Ok.. salam... have a nice day...

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I'm listening to Ramli Sarip's song while writing this entry , BUKAN KERNA NAMA... sayup listening to the lyric... Amat bermakna, its about life... I like these lines...
Jangan kau pandang bibir yang manis
Kerana dia bisa menghancurkan
Jangan kau pandang wajah yang indah
Kerana dia bisa meracunmu
(chorus)
Dengarlah hai teman
Dengarkan bersama
Aku menulis bukan kerna nama
Kerna sifat kasih
Pada sesama insan
Dan menyatakan kasih sayangmu
Kita sama semuanya sama
Apa yang ada hanyalah KEHIDUPAN

Happy Mothers Day!

Salam again...

My weekends went smoothly.. Both of us spent the nite in Seremban, mana lagi if not my in law's place.. We went to Duyong, Melaka for dinner.. Makan seafood kat situ.. But too bad, I masih kene pantang to eat such food, so they ordered me nice fish meal & ayam goreng pandan... Nothing much to say, its just that my in laws were all excited & counting the days for my baby to come.. :)

Banyak tips & advice I got from espc my sis in law.. Hmm.. banyak sgt input.. so tak tahule, I will just redah & kp strong when the time comes...

I just want to share & wish to all mothers in the world, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

Of course, bila tiba time Mother's Day each year, I will remembered my derarest mom.. Yesterday was the 5th year she's.... I can't say the word.. But just AL-FATIHAH... I still remembered, she will not cook on this special, will ask us to bring her to her special warung near to our place in Ampang, where she will have her special meal, the Soto Jawa with extra bergedil.. Sounds attempting right?? Till today, I still don't have any idea, whether that warung still there on business or not... Dah lama sgt x makan tempat tu.. Will check it out one day.. My mom,a very simple kind of person, tak pernah minta belikan apa2 special present for her :) God, I missed her a lot...

So I put a picture of her with the 4 of us, masa ni my youngest sister, belom tiba lagi.. No time nak korek2 album lama.. I got it from my bro's FB...

Guess?? kitorang kat mana ni??:)

To all my blog readers, if your mother still around.. just don't stop loving them... :)

Confused mom & dad-to-be...

Salam all....

How shall I start??

Well I'm now 34weeks +4days in my pregnancy actually.. not 36weeks.. I went a thorough assessment at Ampang Hospital last nite.. Why did go to hospital?? WN & I was confused with both GP's findings at KK & private clinic' last Wednesday... Both have different views on my current baby's condition..

A bit upset with GP at KK.. Both doctor & nurse was so confident saying that my baby is in normal postion, meaning the baby's head has turned down, no more breach la.. I was wondering how come they are so sure with it without scanning it...?? Mula2 dengar, I bersyukurla... Maybe they were rite about it.. I told WN about it, so he immidiately suggested that we should go for a 2nd opinion...

We went to our favourite clinic at Bukit Indah just to make sure la.. As usual, the doctor did the ultrasound on me.. Surprisingly, the baby still BREECH position! The position still tak bergerak pon since 2 weeks ago... So how come the GP & nurse was so confident it has turned to a normal position?!? She said that my baby is already 35weeks++.. Different 'number' given from what the other GP said to me, whereby I'm still in my 34 weeks... Mana satu nak percaya ni..? The GP ta the private clininc advised us to get expert's advise from the hospital... Masa tu both of us tak terfikir pulak nak pegi hospital immidiately.. One more thing, from the last check up at the hospital, the Gynae ada mentioned to come back by 17th May to check on the baby's position.. Both of us pon decide to wait untill 17th May...

I was in dilemma... (wish i could have a better word).. Same goes with WN, I guess??

The next day, I received a call from WN for his workplace... He told me that one his cousin has advised us to go and get the expert's advise with my condition.. sebab still breech and da nak dekat with due date.. He asked me whether nak pegi terus tak hospital malam ni to get a clear advise?? I said why not kan??

By 7pm, WN reached home.. & went straight to Ampang Hospital.. Reached at ER, explained to the ER officer about my situation.. So he told me, he will check with the doctor in charge sebab I don't have the referral letter from the clinic stating my current condition.. After few minutes, the officer came back to us & said he will send us straight to Wad Bersalin for a further check up...

Lama sikit menunggu kali ni for the Gynae to come because the nurse told me that there is a serious case at the operation room... As usual the nurse asked me to past urine.. Kali ni she did CTG on me to check with my baby's condition for 20minutes.. The nurse told me, in my case, selalunya kalau baby still songsang doctor akan pursuade the parents to do the C-section, lagi2 la kalau 1st baby... Biasanya C-section will be held on the 37-38weeks of pregnancy..Biasalah to avoid further complications... Tapi, I kene jugak go through some stages before the c-section.. Most probably kalau my baby still kecik, they will try to rotate the baby ( susah nak sebut in the medical term, 'rotary...' something).. Kalau baby tak turn jugak, barula bedah..

Checked for WN at waiting room, told him the latest updates.. Asked him to pegi makan dulu... Nanti apa2 I inform him..

By 9pm.. The doctor came, alamak doktor lelaki.. kali ni bukan gynae... I think the nurse have already explained my condition before he came to see me.. He asked where did u get the ultrsound service?? So apa lagi, i buka la cerita from A-Z... He just smiled and said, " So u & husband confused la ni..?" He seems to understand with my 'dilemma'.. advised me not to worry too much.. He said something like this, "Its good that both of u decide to get opinion here immidiately, if I were the parents-to-be, I will do the same.." So he did the ultrasound scanning on me, he agreed that my baby still breech... Then, he said, he will refer my case to his boss to do another assesment on me and to advise the next step.. Few minutes , one lady doctor came, this one I x kenal.. Rupanya, its another Gynae.. The previous gynae was outstation... Very calm kind of person.. She read the maternal report from both GP.. She told me that she referring with private clinic's report.. and did another scanning with a different machine... She told me while doing this, she will know the baby's age, due date of delivery & etc.... Wish WN was there too...

Finally, both of them, confirmed that I'm 34weeks and 4 days in my pregnancy.. They confirmed it from the size of the baby's brain development and etc.. She advised to come back by 22nd May 2008, by then, my baby will be in her/his 36weeks ++.. Both of them explained what to expect on 22nd May.. Most probably, if the baby still in the same position, they will decide to attend C-section on me immidiately.. I tak terperanjat as I already expected it... :)

Lastly... they found out that I ada lagi infection, its just like previous infection... Thank God, dapat tahu... Both of them were quite upset, because they were wondering why does the KK's GP tak asses my condition secara terperinci.. Another thing is, they found out that I haven't done the MGTT test (test on my sugar level) for a second time.. Sepatutnya I should have done it by 30weeks in pregnancy.. I told them diorang tak cakap2 apa2 pon.. Terasa neglected sangat by KK's services... Both of them agak frust jugak to hear that.. Nasib baikla pegi hospital, kalau x, tak tahu apa nak jadi... Rasanya da malas nak buat check up at KK la lepas ni.. Harapkan pasal kene ada passport buku merah ni jela... :(

Almost 10pm... the doctor printed the discharge letter, medical report & gv prescription for my infection.. I can't do heavy exercises like house cleaning, cooking & etc anymore.. Kene dok relax kat rumah.. Advisable to have morning or evening walk, it will be less stress than house cleaning.. Both of them mentioning jangan lupa appointment 22nd May ni... Kali ni, husband buleh ikut sekali... I felt so much reliefed after seeing them..

I explained to WN with the doctor's advise... he seems reliefed too & so upset with KK's services.. Cuma date 22nd May ni dekat sgt with his next court hearing.. Both of us have to be extra-strongla..

Balik rumah.. both of us were so exhausted.. I cant sleep well, rasa sebu perut, maybe its the medicine's reaction kut.. Pagi ni barula OK..

Right now.. hanya berbekalkan doa & keredaan Allah swt.. Takdirkanlah jalan yang terbaik untuk aku & bakal anak aku.. InsyaALLAH.. Tuhan Maha Melindungi... :)

God is always with us...InsyaALLAH..

Salam..

Last Sunday .. Had a great weekend with SB & ES.. Sempat makan ikan bakar keli for lunch before to FELDA Sg. Kelah, Perak for the 1st time. Tima kaceh pada saudara Epol for the lunch treat...

Nak tengok gambar?? Too bad, the camera is with ES.. Tgh tunggu dia upload... hehehe

Sg. Kelah, that place is very famous with the hot spring & air gunung... So sempat la berendam kaki di hot spring yang ada disitu.. WN?? He tinggal di rumah, tak follow... He needs to sort out a lot of things before the court hearing the next day.. One more thing he has a meeting with his lawyer in the evening...O ya.. WN actually took charges towards his previous company, whereby he was forced to resigned under duress 3 years ago.. The details?? I don't have to mention it here... Serba salah pon ada jugak leaving him alone at home.. but, I know that he needs sometimes for himself :)

We had early dinner Ampang Oldtown White Coffee and meet up my dear WN there. Nmpak jugak kesugulan di mukanya... But all us of tried to cheer up, wlaupon kepenatan SB & ES terserlah.. We understand how WN's felt that time.. Mungkin I dont really favor Oldtown Coffee ni, so xde apa la sgt utk makan2 kat situ.. Thanks ya SB belanja kitorg minum..

We went straight home.. didn't ask WN that much of a question about 2morrow's agenda... Did the laundry & saw WN took a nap for a while on the couch.. After Isya' prayers, I sat beside WN, ask him to get a shower & offered him a cup of coffee... Barula nmpak dia tersenyum.. :) The he showed me the baby's pillow's cover that he bought at JJ, Mid valley.. sempat jugak la dia membeli brg utk anaknya... Did ask him to sleep early for the nite... I said to him like this :
MH: malam ni tido awal ya, solat & doa2 byk2... I realised u dont get enough sleep lately..
WN: (hanya tersenyum) without saying anything..

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Watched National Georaphic channel... I saw him doing solat hajat & berzikir in the room before went to sleep... Around 10pm, I just took a nap on the couch, so that I won't be distracting his attention .. By 12am (kot) he woke me up & asked me to sleep in the room..

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Monday 04052009.. WN woke up early in the morning... Asked him what to wear for the day.. Made him a cup coffee... Then few minutes later, he's ready to court for the 1st time...

Waiting for his updates.. but xde apa2.. His mom was the worriest person of the day , been calling me asking WN's updates.. In my heart I just pray that he will be strong & God will kurniakan what's BEST for him after all the pain & sufferings that he had gone through... I keep my self busy at home doing the the house chores... By 2pm, finally WN back at home while I was in a shower... He told me the session ended early & will be continued the next day..

He looked rather more relaxed as compared before.. Ye la da dapat momentum 'soal jawab' in court.. He shared his moment for the day.. Eventhough he's a bit stressed & frustrated sbb being provoked by his opponent's solicitor's Qs.. Selalunya bila one party's xde case, they will try at their best to play emotions rather than finding the facts... I told him keep strong, dont potray yourself that u are angry... I know that I'm not in your shoes baby, but at least I want u to know that are a strong person to deal this sort of things...

We had spagheti bolognese for early dinner.. We had a chat while watching TV... WN realised that I've been x senang duduk.. I complained to him that I'm so not comfortable these days eversince da sarat mengandung.. I told him feel like to INDUCE so the baby will keluar..By 11pm.. both of us.. zzzz..zzz...

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Tuesday 05052009 As usual both of us woke up by 6.20am... After Subuh prayers, WN is ready to court again for the day... He mentioned the session will be ended by evening...A bit longer than yesterday...

By 11am, while I was about to take my wuduk as being advised by my dear mom-in-law to baca Yassin & bykkan doa for WN.. I received sms from WN... According to his sms this time, he was really down after being soal bertubi2... Such a strong person like him, it must have been very BAD session for the day.. I replied him to keep strong, God is always with us.. espcially for golongan teraniaya, apalagi dianiaya oleh orang2 kafir seperti dia...

I did my tears while reciting Yassin.. feeling so sebak.. I can't imagine my dear hubby's situation rite now. I keep praying to ALLAH swt to give WN the most strength to go through for the day... Thats all I can do as being a wife & a mother to be to his child...

Feel so much reliefed after reciting Yassin.. doa banyak2 utk dia.. Semoga ALLAH swt akan memberi perlindungan, semangat & kemenangan yang hak kepadanya..

Around 1pm, received his sms again... updating me with latest status.. Alhamdulilah, eventhough he had a bad session for the day, he went through it smoothly.. The sesion will continue after lunch... But this time is his previous colleagues (witness) soal jawab session pulak..

Zohor pon da masuk... Its time for me to do the prayers.. Hope everything will be fine.. As I said.. ALLAHswt will always hear to his hamba's prayers.. Cuma kita sahaja yang kadang2 lalai utk DIA....

To all my blog readers, just pray that both of us will be blessed by HIM... I'm still look forward to hear his updates...

The latest look..

This is me with WN... Jalan2 at Taman Titiwangsa,KL lately..

besar kan perut? :)

So far... tgh tunggu hari.. Hope evrything will be fine... InsyaAllah...

33weeks now... C-section??? Should I??

Salam... I'm now 33 weeks in my pregnancy.. Went for ante-natal checkup at klinik kesihatan yesterday around 2pm...

Doctor xde comment apa sgt...Its time for me to have really good rest/tidor & x payah buat keje berat2 sgt.. Sebab energy da byk consumed for the baby, so dok relax je la.. She still encouraged to have mini-exercise like window shopping so that my muscle tak beku bila nk deliver nanti & jgn lupa minom susu & air.. Hehehe.. O ya, satu comment je, your bulging tummy still x nmpak sgt even da 8 bulan.. Probably its my 1st pregnancy, so ramai yg experience to have small tummy... My weight alhamdulilah, has increased 1.5 kg in 2weeks time.. :) So in total, it's 5 kg increased from the 1st trimester... But, I'm a bit frustrated sebab the ultrasound machine at govt clinic yet to be fixed... Biasala government, kalau satu barang rosak it will take time to be replaced/fixed.. faham-faham je la :( She was confidently saying that I'm still in my 31 weeks... Confused with the gynae at the hospital.. she claimed pulak da 32 weeks last week.. I should be in my 33weeks now.. So mana satu nak percaya ni?? ::sigh::

The doctor realised that I query too much about it, so she advised to get the ultrasound services at the nearest hospital or if nak cepat pegila mana2 private clinic... Nak tahu sgt kan?? Discussed with WN, it seems he took half day yesterday (again), we decided to go to our favourite clinic near to our place later.. Xpela, bayarla sikit kan..?

Laparla pulak lepas check up tu.. Around 3.30pm, we both pegila makan Ampang Yong Tau Foo @ Ampang Point... Lama betol x makan YTF.. WN sempatla jugak fixed his tapak kasut kat tukang kasut tepi jalan... tajam tumit kaki u ni kan..? :P

Around 4pm before went home, we dropped by at our fav clinic to get the ultrasound service.. It was nice seeing the doctor again... So she scanned my tummy thoroughly.. OMG! My baby still in 'breech' (songsang) position... One thing I like about this doctor, she is so detail, knowledgeable & always ready to gv information while doing the scanning... X macam GP yang lain, da buleh dianggap mcm gynae at the hospital.. I can tell that she really like her job... She explained exactly the same like what the gynae used to tell me at the hospital... So its confirmed, I'm now 33weeks in my pregnancy..

Hmm.. Its seems my baby is in breech position, she advised me to get the C-section during delivery nanti, in a way to avoid major complications.. One more thing is that jarang ada baby akan pusing saat-saat terakhir.. Lagi satu my baby's weight is almost 2kg... so da xde space sangat & fluid pon da semakin kurang for him/her to turn around... WN encouraged me to get the C-section so that I don have to go thru with the labour pain.. But, I did shared some experiences with relatives and friends who gone thru with C-section ni, mmg la TAK SAKITt during labour, tapi akan SENGSARA lepas tu... ada yg takes about a month to recover epsc luka dalam perut... To tell u the truth, I was TERRIFIED to have C-section during labour.. Oh yes, my sis pon said the same thing jugak, if the baby still in breech position, its BEST to get C-section instead to have normal delivery... Apa-apa pon.. I will always berdoa what's best for me and te baby.. Ya ALLAH! Kurniakanlah jalan yang terbaik for both of us.. Janji dua2 selamat... :) Sakit ke tak sakit, semua tu tolak tepi... Kalau tak, itu bukan pengalaman kan ?

So WN sempat jugakla tanya the doctor about baby's sex.. Hehehehe... Kali ni the doctor still cannot determine the sex... Puas da dia godeh2 alat scanner tu, with hope the baby will bagi space to look at his/her sex... This time xde keizinan, he/she still menyorok... Anyway, we both were happy to see that the baby is healthy in a complete form...:D

Inilah rupa my baby inside.. da nmpak besar kan??

My baby.. 33 weeks.. :)

We both quite happy for the day.. puas dapat tgk keadaan baby for a moment... Masa balik tu, sempat la jugak WN comment : "U nikan x prnah percaya apa yang I cakap kat u... Kene tunggu org lain cakap benda yg sama apa yang I cakap, barula u nak percya cakap I kan..?" Mesti u all tertanya apa yang mmbuatkan both of us to have such dialogue kan..? To WN, bukannya I tak percaya, is only that I didn't take one statement & jumped into conclusion just like that.. Hope u understand.. Jgn bengang ye..? Yes, I mengaku, u always rite! :D

I decided to cook for dinner... Lama sgt x masak makanan berlauk sejak cepat keletihan ni.. WN pon da lama x merasa air tgn aku masak berlauk ni.. Then, got a call from my oldmates, FD & FS nak ajak dinner di luar, instead of that, I invited them to have dinner together at my place.. So we had a great time having dinner together.. So biasalah, FS mengambil peluang utk meluahkan perasaanya & shared his problem with his 'toot' to us.. apa2 pon, FS, bykkan bersabar.. We always there for u.. :)

So apa lagi nak tulis.. Later at night, ada kenduri bertandang at one my uncle's place in Taman Tun Dr Ismail... Planning to go with my dad, so I will meet up WN later, it seems his workplace near to TTDI.. :)

Antara umat2 yang aku rindu.. :)

Salam...

WN taking half day today.. So he had lunch at home.. Sambil berborak, we mentioned abt my elder sister... Ntah tiba2, lepas tu, aku meleret teringat dgn org2 yang lama da aku x jumpa... Di sini aku ada gambar2 mereka yang aku maksudkan...

This is my elder sister-JH... the one who really influenced my life ... never fail to gv her support & encouragement espc when I'm down. This pict was taken 3 years ago, vacation with her & family at KK, Sabah... Masa ni belom jumpa WN lagi... :P

Anak sulung JH... anak buah yg pertama... masa ni baru 2 tahun kut.. skrg da 5 tahun..

Anak kedua & ketiga JH.. Yang nombor dua byk ikut muka aku & perangai pon 'copycat' aunty dia...
Yang kat belakang tgh membongkokkan badannya, tu anak sulung JH.. da besar skrg...

O ya... forgot to mention... mereka2 ni tak tinggal di Malaysia.. My sis married to a Pakistani.. So da jodoh dia... So dia skrg tercampak kat sanala... Sekali setahun la I got to see them... Alhamdulilah she's happy there...

Secondly... My pictures with ex-officemate yg dulu.... antara org2 yang aku rapat... smpai skrg masih lagi contact eventhough masing2 da buat hal2 masing-masing...

good time karaoke-ing... antara activity after office hour bila semua stressed! semua mmg tak buleh nmpak microphone... mcm esok x bule nyanyi..

ni antara ex-officemate yg rapat...

I still remember... I had great friends at my workplace before... macam adik beradik... bila sorang ada masalah, we always cover up each other.. tapi ada jugak yg talam 2-3 muka... but to whom it may concern.. u guys really in my heart... :) wish could turn back the time.. look forward to go to work, walaupon management ntah apa2... :P

Psst: Ada jugak yg xde dlm gambr ni.. saper yg rasa xde dlm gambar.. jgn terasa... sbb mmg xde au simpan..

Of course.. orang yg paling aku rindu... saper lagi kalau bukan my aruah mommy... I dont have her picture this time... Nanti balik umah my dad, aku akan 'korek' album.. Al-Fatihah...

Tuhan Maha Pengasih... aku masih lagi ada org-org yg sayang & jaga aku seadanya.... I dont have to mention it here.. U know who u are.. :D

Hope everything will be fine :)

Salam all!

really don't know how to start... Its been almost a week I didn't update my blog...

Hmmm.. O yess... I got purging problem last Thursday.. Ingatkan diarrhea.. rupanya gastric.. Sakit tak ingat... Yela everytime masuk je makanan dlm perut , keluar balik... Lembik dibuatnya.. Kesian my baby inside x makan satu hari... So malamnya, WN sent to clinic after work... Kene sound la jugak with WN , because i tak tanya nak pegi ke x clinic.. Aku bukannya x nak tanya, sbb I thought its not really serious case.. & serba salah nk minta tolong :)

So the doctor said its due to gastric.. He prescribed me ORS & ubat gastric that won't harm the baby inside.. I did asked anythng that would stop the purging, but he refused, sbb bahaya utk baby...

Had bubur kosong with ikan bilis for dinner.. Then, terus amik ubat & ORS.. Watched keliwon, then tiba2 rasa penat sgt badan.. terus tido.. dah tak ingat apa2 lps tu... Alhamdulilah... no purging at all through out the nite... :)

I am 90% recovered the next day.. ada jugak buang air tapi the stool is back to normal.. But still x berani mkn solid food... makanla left over bubur yg ada... minum plain water, no other flavored drink for the day... Malam tu barula berani nk makan yg solid.. Had beef lasagna at one of WN's cousin's stall in Ampang Dagang Avenue.. A bit sweet though.. Ooo yess, SB & SE joined us sekali.. WN just wanna chilled out that nite, after an incredible stressed day at the workplace...

Saturday came.. I am back to normal.. Sihat sejahtera.. :) Had lunch with WN's family at the Lake Club to celebrate his parents wedding anniversary... so kene ceramah la jugak by his family sbb kene gastric.. I'm kinda 'kene dera makan byk' during that time... HAHAHAHA! I can see the 'devilish smile' from WN, bila kene aku kene ceramah by his own family.. Suka ye?? My in laws worried la, sbb dok tgk menantu tak naik2 badan eventhough pregnant...

Then, we rushed to Ampang Gleaneagles, to pay a visit WN's friend.. NS.. She just gv birth to a cute baby girl... Armani Dania... CUTE! NS shared her experience during helr labour moment.. ALAMAK... she had c-section... sbb jalan keluar x buka2 for more than 24 hours.. OMG! quite terrifying to hear that... Alhamdulilah both mommy & baby is fine.. Then, when I saw the baby, I was like.. ALAMAK, its gonna be my turn after this... hehehe...

Join balik WN's family for tea at Cozy Restaurant, Ampang Park pulak.. Hmmm.. it's not really a tea.. An early dinner actualy.... :) Had fun seeing them.. My sis in law 'hadiahkan' baby's clothing dua plastic!! I was like.. Kusssssssemangat.. banyak nya... nasib baik tak 'kecek' WN to buy some more.. Thanks a millions... Really appriciate that :)

We went home late evening.. we both just relaxed ourselves after the outing.. buat la apa yg patut.. looking through at the babies clothes yg baru dapat, I did the kitchen cleaning a bit & laundry setelah dua hari terlantar... I saw WN took a nap at the couch for few hours... Then biasalah, look forward for AF7 concert at 9pm...

After watching AF concert, mata celik lagi,we both watched dvd... BRIDE WARS. quite entertaining... :)

Around 1am.. we both got so sleepy.. ready to bed.. but before that.. we had a pillow talk that nite.. WN suddenly shared his future plan... asking my opinions.. He sounds so excited.. The details, I dont have to mention it here in this entry.. Its just both us je yg tahu & of course God is listening to us..

WN, If you read this.. pls dont say anything ok?? Actualy, I rasa sebak when u told me about your future plan that nite .. and.. I did my tears a bit, but u just don't realised.. because u know why?? I wish I could help you, wish I can sama2 go through with it.. U know what I mean.. I wish that I'm working.. :) God has made plan for us but we dont know what's the future holds for us.. For a moment, I can only give my endless support & encouragement to you.. And I want you to know, I just keep on praying to God that He will bukakan pintu rezeki seluas2nya so that everything will fall into place... :) I'm agreed with u when u said our life has been blessed by Him for the last 8 months.. A lot of things that we had gone through and I'm sure that there will be more to go.. Alhamdulilah.. Walaupun tidak mewah, we are doing just fine & I agreed that our life is getting better secara perlahan2 ... kan? I just pray that we will stay strong no matter what happen.. InsyaALLAH...

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To all my blog readers, no matter if u are married , or about to get married & not just yet, just wanna share that 'setiap perkahwinan adalah satu ibadah'... lain org, lain cerita & juga dugaannya.. Kalau tak, bukan JIHAD namanya kan? Whatever it is, niat mestila murni & kita janganla putus doa untuk mengharapkan keredhaanNya... Kerana apa yg kita buat semua kerana niat yang satu... ALLAH s.w.t... :)

Contraction lagi!

Contraction lagi!

I had it last nite around 3am , it ended by 6am...

Mula2 ingatkan x payah nak pegi hospital during the contraction attacked... But, when hubby called from his office next morning asked me better to go to hospital.. He sounds worried on the phone... Then I decided to go.. Lagipon gynae yg lepas used to mention,kalau ada contraction pegi ER ya..

An oldmate, FD picked me up at 12pm.. planned to go to Bank Negara, nk check with my CCRIS status...While on the way, i told FD what happened last nite, she advised 'Baik Kak Mas pegi check!' With her statement, lagila menguatkan nekad pegi jela hospital tu! Walaupun aku x suka pegi ke situ... Tetiba terbayang muka hubby, mesti dia tgh risau!

FD offered herself to send me to hospital.. After Bank Negara visit, we went straight to Ampang Hospital.. Luckily the traffic was clear & smooth... By 2pm sampaila hospital, ajak FD lunch dulu , then straight to ER... The attendance sent me straight to Wad Bersalin... As usual, the nurses followed normal procedure.. Take BP rate, baby's heartbeat & asked me to passed urine.. Most of them da recognise sape i :)...

Then 10mins later, doctor came (doctor tu pun da kenal muka aku), kali ni dia bawak 2 orang HO baru (doktor pelatih).. One lady & one guy... ALAMAK! doktor lelaki adalah kali ni.. MALU GILE OK! Rupanya the doctor was giving a training to both of them... Tapi tgk the male HO macam.. ehem... gay boy kut...?? I'm confused...

As usual again, the doctor examined me here & there... Suddenly result came.. AIKKK?? cepatnya result da smpai.. Last time aku tunggu berjam-jam... So ALHAMDULILAH my urine clear & xde infection apa2 kali ni... Evrything CLEAR! :) So xpayah aku admit in hospital lagi :D

So doctor kata its BRAXTON HICKS kind of contraction.. so biasala da nak masuk 8 bulan, adala kdg2 sakit perut.. Cuma in my case i cannot differentiate the pattern of contraction, masa kene jangkitan dulu, contraction pattern sama je kali ni.. So thats why doctor advised , pegi je hospital kalau sakit lagi... Lagi satu aku underweight case, so contraction tu selalula ada...

So 3 of them did an ultrasound on me, nak tgk position baby pulak...The doctor said the baby's position masih lagi BREECH (songsang), medical term 'anterious position'... Sepatutnya my baby da 'posterior positon'... sebabnya kali ni da masuk 31 week... Confused ngn doktor klinik kata baru 29 week... Whatever it is, she said, most probbly u akan deliver awal...

OMG!... I got less than 7 weeks to go... So she advised to do the 'harimau' exercise as my hubby used to teach me before to do it in 10 minutes everday.... so that the baby will be at the right position.. Otherwise, baby ok, the weight now is already 1.6kg... O ya, kali ni my baby malu, sembunyi his/her sex... so doctor yet to determine the sex... Aku dapat dgr that my baby sihat, aku da bersyukur...

Then, amik surat discharge.. FD still waiting for me outside... By 3.30pm, everything settled, immidiate called hubby, informed him the status.. he sound reliefed! Aku pon reliefed... Sbb aku OK & baby pon ok..

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To FD, thanks for sending & waiting for me at the hospital.. Nnti suruh abg wafa belanja ok??

Weekend break away

Salam..

Being 'sarat' mengandung, aku beranikan diri jalan jauh ke Ipoh... We were invited to WN's oldmate's wedding at Kellies Castle last Sunday.. ehem.. ehem.. First garden wedding ever being made at that place..

Before that i joined WN's family for a family day at PD, N9... Fun seeing all the anak2 buah joining the telematch... Cute... :).. We overnite at the apartment before to Ipoh next morning.. WN took only 1 hour++ to reach Gopeng tol from KL... He was speeding at 160km/p.. phewwwww.. I just zzzzz..zz in the car.. Tahu2 dah sampai R&R Tapah, where we had a drink & rest there... At the wedding, we all sempatla 'posing' sana sini at that place...

da nak masuk 8 bulan 'ngandung' pon masih nak jalan2 lagi :)

After the wedding, we checked in Hotel Seri Malaysia Ipoh around 3pm... While finding the hotel, WN showed his study place while doing his diploma at Ungku Omar Polytechnic ages ago... Eventhough he's not really sure of the route, but he still remember all the places he used to hang out before.. Nothing much to see at Ipoh, but biasala pegi tempat orang, agak terngangah la jugak seeing it :)

Then, he called his oldtime friend.. AA brings us to the most popular mee rebus in town along with his family.. Both of them were so happy seeing each other.. It was great knowing the family.. Simple & very welcoming family.. Hope to see u guys soon!

On Monday morning, we checked out early.. WN wanted to see his uncle & cousin somewhere in Ipoh.. Then after few hours with them, we went to pasar limau bali in Tambun... we 'borong' about 6 limau bali in total... Nak bagi sesiapa yg rapat le... :) Of course my dad will be very happy to have limau bali, its his favourite...

Lunch at Tanjung Malim while on the way back to KL.. Planned to go Yik Mun's Restaurant, one of the famous kopitiam restaurant there.. Sambil2 tu nak jugak makan pau dia sekali.. But too bad, the restaurant was closed for a renovation... Nasib baik xde 'crave' sgt nk makan pau.. Later we found an interesting place to eat which was reccomended by a group of UPSI's student, sbb kitorg tanya mana nak makan yg best at that area.. So they recoomended one kopitiam restaurant there, Golden Deli restaurant.. So apa lagi i ordered mee curry.. It was superb! I love the fish ball, ada inti inside.. Yummy! Look forward to go there again! :D

Reaced KL around 4pm.. we placed all the baggages & laundry to our house before we rushed to Carrefour Ampang.. Yela da delayed beli barang2 dapur...we spent about 1 hour buying groceries...WN mentioned to visit his cousin yang baru dapat baby last 2 months... So after we sent all the groceries home, we went straight to his cousin's place at Bukit Antarabangsa... Tengok Khadeejah Soraya.. CUTE! His aunty also there taking care of the baby..

Phewwww! what a day rite, but i enjoyed the trip... My baby inside pon agak2 gerak sbb probbaly he/she not comfortable inside because his/her mommy x reti dok diam these 3 days... :D

Later at nite, SB & SE came.. amik limau bali... So they brought us nasi ayam hainam for dinner.. Thanks ya!

So okla... I need to get ready.. I got ante-natal appointment to day at 2pm...

30 weeks in my pregnancy

Salam...

Alhamdulilah I'm 7 months 2weeks in my pregnancy now.. Counting the days..

Certain changes in me :

1. Appearance: escp on my tummy, the bulge looks so obvious, its 33inches now.. People will definitely look straight at my tummy when walking in public...
   
2. Weight : increased only 3.5kg since 1st trimester.. Doctor said I'm underweight :(.. but its quite challenging bila nak bangun espc lepas makan or bangun tidur... Rasa badan da berat gile ok?!
   
3. Tempreture: Always feeling warm & gets sweaty most of the time.. Selalu mandi 3-5 times a day..
4. Mood swing: All the time, but under control... Can be so extra-sensitive...
5. Sitting condition: kene ada cushion at the bottom.. da x buleh cross leg macam Tiara Jacquelina :)
   
6. Body contour: To tell u the truth, most friends commented I looked slimmer as compared before.. Its probably its the food I'm taking which being monitored by hubby most of the time & all the nutrients fats goes to the baby :) (bukan nak bangga) hehehe..
   
7. Leg & feet feel a bit 'bengkak'.. biasala da ada water retention sikit, but not so bad..
8. Hands & finger, tak bengkak sgt, still can put on my wrist watch & wedding ring :)
9. Most people did not regconise my self that much.. I wore glasses most of the time.. Lazy to put on my lenses like b4.. of course no make up at all... hehehe
   
10. Level of activeness: easily get tired & sometimes can be very fatigue so fast, eventhough buat keje rumah yg tak seberapa... Not active like b4.. Sometimes I forced my self to do a little exercise like morning or evening walk everyday...
11. Food pattern: Prefer to take bread instead of rice.. Still craving a lots of things like cucur badak, udang sambal, etc... but too bad, most of it I kene PANTANG :(
12. Walking style: I walk really like a typical 'mak buyong' kaki da tak boleh control ayu macam air stewardess..
13. Main costume: As usual, always put on bigger clothes, da x buleh pakai ketat sbb cepat panas.. Hubby's old clothes menjadi hambatan utama...
    
14. Feeling: Can be so excited sometimes.. Dah nak jadi mak orang kan? Tak sabar nak berslin sbb perut da berat , tambah lagi dengan cramp sana cramp sini... But rasa takut pon ada sbb never know what to expect when the time comes :D

I think thats all for now... heheheh

Am replying to Hasnah Burdges..

Salam...

I am replying to the woman.. (you know who you are...) who decided to embraced Christianity.

Hasnah, I wrote it just because I want to express my frustration & feeling sorry for you... You were right, the previous entry was not a complimentary. I'm sorry to say this, I don't need to have a dialogue with you or even to know why, how , where you decided to convert from being a Muslim to a Christian.. I don't want to :) Thanks..

You are not my enemy and I'm not preaching and force you to go back where u come from.. Of course I'm not God to judge or to punish you ....

Hasnah, as you claimed that you used to ask where is GOD in your difficult time, & of course there were no answer/reply given to you immediately .. Here, I have something to share with u & to all my blog readers out there.. While I was down in my difficult days,I remembered someone asked me to recite one surah from Holy Quran, where Allah said/command in the Surah Al-Inshirah Verse 5 -8:

فَإِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرًا (٥
Verily, with every difficulty, there is relief: (Karena sesungguhnya kesusahan/kesulitan ada kemudahan)(5)
إِنَّ مَعَ ٱلۡعُسۡرِ يُسۡرً۬ا (٦)
Verily with every difficulty there is relief (Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan (6)
فَإِذَا فَرَغۡتَ فَٱنصَبۡ (٧
Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard (Maka apabila kamu telah selesai dari suatu urusan maka kerjakanlah dengan bersungguh2 dengan yang lain) (7)
وَإِلَىٰ رَبِّكَ فَٱرۡغَب (٨
And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention. (dan hanya Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap)8)

The sentence 'every difficulty , there is a relief' was mentioned/written twice (2) in verse 5-6. I hope u will understand why do I highlighted this surah to u.. In life each of us as human being (khalifah Allah) will be given a test after test, even though sometimes is just got so hopeless & we dont know what to do next, but the term 'DON'T GIVE UP' was interpreted here in this surah, therefore we should ask /pray/seek for His help & guidance, endlessly.. :)

InsyaALLAH , He will answer to all your prayers in a matter of time.. And for sure, He's testing on your IMAN... :)

I hope this is gonna be the very last entry regarding to u, Hasnah... I will NOT explain or even write about what you should do next in your life.. It is your choice.. It between you & God...

I believed that all my Muslim friends/blog readers are agreed with me, feeling so sorry for u, Hasnah.. I pray that Allah s.w.t will protect you & guide you to go back where you come from.. InsyaALLAH...

Durian oh durian ! :)

Salam

Ada sebalik cerita durian dalam family aku, a.k.a keluarga HH...

I have one sister in law, NA, yang berasal dari Felda Palong, N9... married to my younger bro last 2 years... Satu-satunya menantu perempuan dalam keluarga aku (untuk masa ni...).. Tgh tunggu abang sulungku utk settle down, hanya TUHAN saja yang tahu bila masanya... hmmm.. ::sigh::

Still remember the 1st time my younger bro, MK, introduced her to my family... Agak terkedu bila aku melihat wajahnya apatah lagi personaliti yang agak... wooooo... mesmerised! Lagi satu aku agak close ngn MK but dia x pernah mention apa2 ttg NA sebelum ni...

Ok.. lets make it short... apa kene mengena dgn isu durian ni..?

Satu hari, sebelum MK brkahwin NA, MK membawa durian satu guni selepas pulang dari kampung NA di Palong.. Yela masa tu tgh syok bercintan lagi, so selalulah MK offer NA ke kampung.. Katanya NA's parents ada kebun durian, rambutan & lain2 lagi di kampung...

Aku happyla sbb aku suka makan durian... :D

But, me & the whole family was shocked.... Kami berpaling antara satu sama lain... Only one sentence in our mind which was "OMG, his future wife is KAKI MAKAN DURIAN ke??!!"

I believed mesti u all akan tertanya kena-mengena DURIAN & NA??

To tell u the truth, adik kesayangan aku tu memang tak makan durian.. dgr durian je dia la orang yg pertama akan lari termasuk la ngn my beloved father, HH pon anti-makan durian!!! Bau durian kat dalam rumah, mereka berdua ni akan bising..LOL! Wah... tapi ada kekasih yg hantu durian, sanggup bawa balik satu guni... bayangkan perjalanan dari kampung NA ke KL mengambil masa dalam 2 jam... Tak tahula macam mana MK buleh tahan ngn bau kan..?? Xpe, cinta punye pasal, bau durian sanggup ku redah! :D

:: Flashback about 20 years ago::
Aku teringat, aku makan durian di belakang dapur bersama aruah mommy, kakak (JH) & abang sulongku (GG)... So kami empat beranak having happy-hour eating it before ayahku pulang dari surau..
Oh ya, masa tu HH (ayahku) ada buat rules, saper nak makan durian, kene makan while he's not around in the house.. Teringat satu dialogue yang masih bermain di kepala ku ketika itu:

Aruah mommy: Eh, mamat (MK).. Meh-la join makan durian kampung.. sedap!

MK: (Dengan membuat memek muka) Uwekkkkk!! Hidup mati semula pon mamat takkan makan tau!!

Aruah Mommy: Wah action-nya! (dgn pelat singapura)... GG!! LEKAS, hambat kaki mamat tu, mommy nk 'celet' kat mulut dia ni! (sambil gelak2)

GG: Ok mommy! (terus lari kejar MK)

Masa tu GG, aku & JH rembat MK... Kami adik beradik gelakkan MK. Apalagi, MK menjerit2 macam apa je pleading to release him ASAP!

Aruah mommy: Mamat buka mulut!! Kalau tak, mommy sumbat!

MK: (sambil meronta2) X nak! X nak ! Sorryla mommy , sumpah mamat tak buat lagi!

So, we all pon lepaskan MK sambil gelak2 besar! Tapi mak aku agak nakal, sempat lagi 'celet' sedikit durian lalu ke pipi MK.. Apa lagi MK berlari ke toilet mambasuh pipi..

Aruah mommy: Mat! nanti kau da besar, mesti dapat bini yang hantu durian...

:: Memang sah-sah, adikku seorang tu da terkene sumpah mak aku, dapat bini kaki durian! ::

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Morale of the story:
Jangan membenci sesuatu terlalu sangat, nanti kene muka kepala sendiri.. kan..? :D

Teringat2 suatu ketika....

Semalam bersama WN & HP geng... menonton movie Talentime, filem Yasmin Ahmad yang terbaru

I'm writing with a quite dramatic feeling inside.. Just to share with all of you.. :)

Satu babak dalam movie tersebut yang amat menyentuh hati :

::Scene: Di hospital, seorang ibu yg sedang belenggu dgn barah otak ditemani oleh anaknya. Doktor memberi suntikan kepada ibu yg sedang sakit::

Hafiz: Doktor, ibu kelihatan semakin sihat, dia semakin pulih ke??

Doktor: (menjawab dengan bahasa agak kasar) Bukan sihat, tapi disebabkan steroid sbb tu badan naik. She's not getting better either..

Ibu: Hafiz, pegila balik, pegila practice untuk talentime nanti.. Hafiz xkan sanggup melihat ibu nanti..

Hafiz: Tak mengapa ibu, Hafiz akan bersama ibu...

Ibu: Hafiz, Ibu mengandungkan Hafiz sewaktu ayah tinggalkan ibu... (Silent for a moment) Hidup Ibu terus kelam.. Gelap.. Tapi bila Hafiz datang ke dunia..... (aku da tak ingat apa yg si ibu perkatakan kepada anaknya but all I know it was something touching and meaningful, teringat kpd seseorang that I really missed so much)

::......................... paused and silent .......................::

Suddenly... pipi terasa basah... OMG! Keadaan ibu yang di lakonkan Azean Herdawaty reminds me of someone... It was MY LATE MOM... The scene described almost similar condition like my late mom on her very last days; battled with cancer, bedridden, completely bold covered with scarf, constantly put on weight eventhough x makan sangat , frequent throw up lepas makan, perut kembung, hardly speak well. And, the worse scenario was, being injected with steroid and morphine every day.. and.. that moment we all knew that its time for her to go...

Tapi itu semua da berlalu 5 tahun yg lepas...

Its best for her to go than seeing her so much in pain and sufferings.. Yet, still feeling empty without her being around... One good friend used to tell me, hilang bapak tidak terasa sangat if dibandingkan kehilangan ibu.. Eventhough I'm already 30 years old, married & a mother to be, but still, without her being around, its feels like one space yang telah di-vaccum, macamner puas u cari, you can never find that space again...

Life goes on without my dearest mom... Kepada semua di luar sana yang masih ada ibu, appreciate your mother while she's still alive..

Apa2 pon I enjoyed watching that movie... A lot of domestic issues being highlighted while watching it...

:: Al-Fatihah untuk Allahyarhamah Hajah Noorchahaya bt Ibrahim... Semoga rohnya sentiasa dicucuri rahmatNya dan dikurniakan tempat antara orang-orang yang beriman Amin ::

Admitted less than 24 hours at Ampang General Hospital

Salam all..

Alhamdulilah resting at home & been discharged from hospital yesterday..

Actually I was planning to go & watch fot Teater Laksamana Cheng Ho that nite, but Tuhan tak izinkan.. Something else happened for a good reason..

The chronology of what happened before & after admitted to Ampang Hospital.

14th March 2008, Saturday:
5.30pm:
Sms-ed hubby while he's on his way home from Seremban, told him that i got sharp pain at lower abdomen, feeling some kind of contraction.. While waiting, I wrote down the timing & the frequent of the contraction every 6-8 minutes... God knows how I felt...

Around 6.30pm:
WN got home, he looked rather relax but couldn't remember what he said to me. Me, was sitting on the bed, hanging on to the breath to ease the pain as i have the guidance book beside me. He called his mom, advised us to go to clinic for further check up. Reached at nearest clinic, the doctor couldnt do much, she advised us to refer to the hospital. The pain is healing slowly, but WN urged to go to hospital, Hospital Ampang la paling dekat..

7.00pm:
WN dopped me at the emergency room, as he need to park the car... Luckily I have the 'buku merah' with me... The hospital attendance rushed me (on the wheelchair ) to the WAD BERSALIN immidiately. Lama jugak tunggu doctor ni, i think after 30 mins , the doctor showed up... Explain what happened, she immdiately examine me here & there.. Ya ALLAH!! sakitnya bila dia 'chot' & put something into my vagina.. Its one of the procedure to check what really cause the pain.. She took sample from my vagina & asked me to past urine.. She suspected probably its URINE INFECTION that cause the pain.. She asked the nurse to send the sample for a test..

Could not reach WN as the reception was bad.. Went to the waiting room outside, WN was there waiting for me.. Told WN about it .. IF its true the urine infection that cause the case, I will not be admitted.. The doctor will gv some prescription than we can go home..

9pm (while waiting for result at TV area):
The doctor came, she told me the urine test was clear.. She said it was somthing else, ada jangkitan di dinding faraj, so the case needed to referred to the experts- Gynecologist. The case refered as 'vagina candiasis'. So I have to be admitted for closer observation.. My heart was beating fast... I did cried a bit, worried, panicking, terus risau that anything will harm my baby inside..

The nurses calmed me down as they gv me 'baju persalinan'. The bed is ready for me.. They told me not too worried too much as we will take care of u... YA ALLAH! Macamane nak bagitau hubby ni...

The nurse took me to the bed on the wheelchair again.. I saw WN still waiting for me, he ikut sekali to the ward.. I told him what happened.. He looked still relax and tried his best to calm me down... Inside him, only GOD knows.. I asked favor to get me something to eat as both of us were hungry.. He asked me wther I need anything else.. Yupp of course, all the basic necessities please... he knows what to bring for me..

My dad reached at the hospital, but too bad, he can't get in, the visiting was over.. He advised me to recite one para from Surah Yassin, but being tired & bercelaru, I could not remember apa dia dia suruh baca..

Few minutes later, the Gynae came, did an ultrasound scan on me... everything was in good condition in my tummy.. The baby looks fine.. She told me the gender... and its tooottttt!! Rahsia.. She told me that I will start on antibiotics & will monitor me whether I'm still having the contraction throughout the night.. I feel so much relieved after that..

10.45pm:
WN came back with yummy food while I was comforting myself on the bed.. Kesian dia.. Dahla hujan lebat.. I bet dia pon belom makan lagi.. he brought the necessities stuff for me... I LOVE U, BEE! Told him what the Gynae said... Then, satu makcik guard came us, told us dgn sopannya that the visiting hours has over asking WN to leave ...

Throughout the nite:
Could not sleep well, as all my roomates as they were 3 of them was waiting to deliver their babies... I felt so 'insaf' looking at their condition nak bersalin... Terbayang semua dosa-dosa with my parents, husband & siblings... huhuhu.. Some of them having some difficulties & complications during pregnancy period, all i can say, its worse than me... Ada yang terpaksa 'induce awal' before the due date because of anaemic, ada yang being bedridden for the last 4 months because of weak womb... dan macam-macam lagi...

The nurses checked on me every one hour to make sure that I'm ok.. Alhamdulilah no longer pain on me.. Wished that I was at home... Still trying to get some sleep... Then, biasala dikejutkan dgn my roomates yg sakit nak bersalin... InsyaALLAH Harap2 tuhan akan memberi kemudahan for me & baby when the time comes..

15th March, Sunday
7am:
Breakfast sampai... served nasi berlauk and coffeee?? Pelik sungguh hospital ni...
Waited for Gynae to come... Nurses doing the normal routine, checking my BP, jantung anak & etc... While waiting, I had a chat with roomates, sharing experience, etc.. Other than that, untuk menghilangkan bosan, I put on my MP3 player, dgr surah2 suci Al-Quran. :)

10.30am:
Still waiting for Gynae.. WN smsed me whether i still need anything as he will come around 12.30pm.. Feeling hungry, but nothing to eat... look forward to see WN and the munchy stuff too!!

11.20am:
Gynae finally came, examined me here & there again... Alhamdulilah, I'm ok, so I can be discharged today.. She said today is the last day I'm on antibiotic, its a precautious step not to harm the baby inside... But, I was a bit frustrated when she told to PANTANG makan.. Dahla tgh craving for a lot of things now.. Sabar je la.. Anyway, i'm taking it positive for the sake of my baby.. Nanti da keluar dari perut, harap2 janganla buat hal dgn mama and abah ok... Love u baby!

12.30pm & above:
WN came. Glad to see him.. I told him that I am feeling much better & i'll be discharge today..

My dad, brother & his wife with their baby came... They were impressed with the hospital, eventhough gomen.. Yela hospital umor x sampai 2 tahun semuanya baru & cantek... Equipement all up-to-date.. hehehehe

The nurse gave surat discharged.. Packed my stuff.. Checked out & settled the bill at the ER counter with WN... Harganya keseluruhan hanya RM18 ok..? WN mcm x percaya... hahahaha

3pm..
Sampai rumah... Great to be home again.. Watching TV & had a chat with WN... Few minutes, tiba2 rasa penat & mengantuk... I slept.. pukul 6pm baru bgn...

Now.. still recharging.. Badan still rasa x fresh as usual.. tak tahu kenapa..

Walaupon satu malam di hospital tapi membawa seribu makna for me... :)