Mentally tired..

As salam all

Perghhhh.. what a long weekkkk that I have to go thru.. rasa lambat nak Jumaat this weekkk..

My mood this weeekkk tak payah cakap.. dgn 'bendera Jepon' tgh naikkk ni lagila.. everything seems so wrong... anak2 pulak asyik nak melekat dgn mamanya.. nak kata ada 'isi' @ coming adik dlm perot, I don think so... mensus dtg tepat masanya, x mungkin 'sangkut'..

I'm having my 'time out' alone in d room now.. had a blast with my 1st baby, Rees.. urghhhh.. ! She's so demanding lately.. yang mmbuatkan bertambah stress is she cant speak that well like other 2 year old toddlers.. so aku jadi x paham apa yg dia NAK.. dok merengek x tentu pasal tapi x nak cakap... so sampai satu tahap mcm skrg, I just told her off + scream at her, "Mama need a break! Do not disturb!"I went upstairs, straight to my room..

Paham pulak bahasa, selalunya dia akan ikut aku ke atas, kali ni, I think she knew her mama is angry + tired... so she just stayed where she is now.. dok depan tv kot dgn adeknya + the maid...

Biasalah bila kita tgh marah skrg ni, mcm2 bisikan yg dtg.. lagila tgh nak Maghrib ni kan.. rasa nak mengamok je, baling apa yang patut! Tapi mulut ni masih tahu nak mengucap..Masih mampu tarik nafas panjang2 and calm myself alone.. keep on telling myself that everything will be alrite..

Kdg2 tgk programme 'Surviving Motherhood' kat TV.. helps me la sket, tgk matsaleh kat America tu, lagi la xde maid, anak berderet2 3-4 org, rapat2 lak tu.. but, they are still coping up very well dgn hal2 rumah.

Ok la lege sket writing this entry.. lepaskan geram, nak mandi.. later nak goreng kangkung, oh ya kangkung belakang rumah yang aku tanam.. naseb baik alhamdulilah menjadi...

so wassalammm