GOD is GREAT!

Salam again...

Last week was the horrifying week for both WN & me... Bukannya apa.. dua2 da expect & mentally prepared for c-section.. But God answered to our prayers... Last Friday, 22nd May'09 we went to O& G clinic at Ampang Hospital for appointment.. The doctor found out that our baby's head has finally turned down to a normal position.. Alhamdulilah, no more breech & TAK JADI BEDAH la.. the doctor checked the baby's development thoroughly through the ultrasound machine.. I'm now da nak masuk 37weeks.. One more thing is that kepala baby betol2 da kat bawah, tunggu masa nak engage/lock je.. So the doctor said, skrg ni tunggu masa nak brsalin... Bila2 masa je tau! I was terrified when she said that...

Both of us was so happy.. reliefed & the most greatest word was ALHAMDULILAH.. God is great!

We had quick lunch soon after balik dari hospital... Masa tgh makan tu, I jst got this 'firasat' that agaknya I'll be delivering next Friday, 29th May'09.. I told WN about it.. But his feeling saying its gonna be earlier than that. Takpe kita tunggu.. Hehehehe..

Then, later dalam pukul 4.30ptg.. we planned to meet up my bapak angkat, Pak Ungku.. da lama plan nak jumpa dia, but seems dia always out of town lately... So rezeki SB & WN's friend, BK dapat jumpa bapak & pegi berubat 'spritually' ... terubat rindu bila jumpa bapak & ibu.. the last time I see them masa 3-4 months ago.. Lama jugak berubat, sb ramai patient, we finished abot 9pm.... Itupon bapak insisted us to come that Friday jugak, sbb kalau pegi Sabtu or Ahad, byk patient datang secara 'walk-in'.. So its gonna be a long queue la kan... FYI, pak ungku said thru his 'firasat' too, he said i akan bersalin by Monday (which is today la).. so I just leave it to GOD, Dia yg berkuasa atas segalanya...

Oooo yess almost lupa nak mention... I received a wonderful gift on the same day from... who else?? WN la.. :) Nak tahu hadiah nya..? xpela tak payah nk tunjuk kat sini.. Its a wrist bracelet, its beautiful anyway.. Its a token and symbol for a new beginning of our BIG FAMILY! Thanks & I love u dear!

So that's all for today... BTW, I got a contraction last nite at 2.45am.. then got it again by 3am.. and it stopped by 15-20minutes later.. Told WN about it, may be its just a false alarm... So now tgh tunggu kalau2 ada contraction lagi.. :) Just that everything will be fine. Tuhan akan takdirkan masa yg sesuai utk aku melahirkan zuriat ini... InsyaALLAH... Amin...

22nd May'09.. Hari penentuan...

Tak ada apa sangat nak di tulis...

Hanya menghitung hari untuk 22 Mei 2009... hari penentuan untuk di bedah atau tidak... huhuhuu.. Still hoping miracles to happen.... :)

Lately.. I got mild period pain quite frequent... i read a lot about pregnancy/ delivery articles.. Its a sign that I'm closed to delivery... My bulging tummy getting bigger &it seems da ke bawah.. Berat sangat.. Sakit belakang almost everyday.... My movements pon da limited.. Hmmm... Espc nak membongkokkan badan... Bila time solat da solat secara duduk atas kerusi.. Selalu tersalah, sebab confused antara iqtidal, sujud & duduk antara sujud.. selalu kena start solat bila da confused... hehehehe.. Tapi i still do some light exercises like walking everyday...

I'm packing my stuff slowly sebab nak berpantang di Seremban, at my in laws 's place.. Packing pakai beg besar terus... yela almost 2 months will be there...

So kadang2 tu dok pujuk & cakap with baby inside suruh dia turun... Yelah time ni nak develop bonding at least dia kenal suara parents dia.. Other than that, I just keep on praying & teruskan amalan2 given from both my dad & my inlaws..

Ok.. salam... have a nice day...

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I'm listening to Ramli Sarip's song while writing this entry , BUKAN KERNA NAMA... sayup listening to the lyric... Amat bermakna, its about life... I like these lines...
Jangan kau pandang bibir yang manis
Kerana dia bisa menghancurkan
Jangan kau pandang wajah yang indah
Kerana dia bisa meracunmu
(chorus)
Dengarlah hai teman
Dengarkan bersama
Aku menulis bukan kerna nama
Kerna sifat kasih
Pada sesama insan
Dan menyatakan kasih sayangmu
Kita sama semuanya sama
Apa yang ada hanyalah KEHIDUPAN

Happy Mothers Day!

Salam again...

My weekends went smoothly.. Both of us spent the nite in Seremban, mana lagi if not my in law's place.. We went to Duyong, Melaka for dinner.. Makan seafood kat situ.. But too bad, I masih kene pantang to eat such food, so they ordered me nice fish meal & ayam goreng pandan... Nothing much to say, its just that my in laws were all excited & counting the days for my baby to come.. :)

Banyak tips & advice I got from espc my sis in law.. Hmm.. banyak sgt input.. so tak tahule, I will just redah & kp strong when the time comes...

I just want to share & wish to all mothers in the world, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

Of course, bila tiba time Mother's Day each year, I will remembered my derarest mom.. Yesterday was the 5th year she's.... I can't say the word.. But just AL-FATIHAH... I still remembered, she will not cook on this special, will ask us to bring her to her special warung near to our place in Ampang, where she will have her special meal, the Soto Jawa with extra bergedil.. Sounds attempting right?? Till today, I still don't have any idea, whether that warung still there on business or not... Dah lama sgt x makan tempat tu.. Will check it out one day.. My mom,a very simple kind of person, tak pernah minta belikan apa2 special present for her :) God, I missed her a lot...

So I put a picture of her with the 4 of us, masa ni my youngest sister, belom tiba lagi.. No time nak korek2 album lama.. I got it from my bro's FB...

Guess?? kitorang kat mana ni??:)

To all my blog readers, if your mother still around.. just don't stop loving them... :)

Confused mom & dad-to-be...

Salam all....

How shall I start??

Well I'm now 34weeks +4days in my pregnancy actually.. not 36weeks.. I went a thorough assessment at Ampang Hospital last nite.. Why did go to hospital?? WN & I was confused with both GP's findings at KK & private clinic' last Wednesday... Both have different views on my current baby's condition..

A bit upset with GP at KK.. Both doctor & nurse was so confident saying that my baby is in normal postion, meaning the baby's head has turned down, no more breach la.. I was wondering how come they are so sure with it without scanning it...?? Mula2 dengar, I bersyukurla... Maybe they were rite about it.. I told WN about it, so he immidiately suggested that we should go for a 2nd opinion...

We went to our favourite clinic at Bukit Indah just to make sure la.. As usual, the doctor did the ultrasound on me.. Surprisingly, the baby still BREECH position! The position still tak bergerak pon since 2 weeks ago... So how come the GP & nurse was so confident it has turned to a normal position?!? She said that my baby is already 35weeks++.. Different 'number' given from what the other GP said to me, whereby I'm still in my 34 weeks... Mana satu nak percaya ni..? The GP ta the private clininc advised us to get expert's advise from the hospital... Masa tu both of us tak terfikir pulak nak pegi hospital immidiately.. One more thing, from the last check up at the hospital, the Gynae ada mentioned to come back by 17th May to check on the baby's position.. Both of us pon decide to wait untill 17th May...

I was in dilemma... (wish i could have a better word).. Same goes with WN, I guess??

The next day, I received a call from WN for his workplace... He told me that one his cousin has advised us to go and get the expert's advise with my condition.. sebab still breech and da nak dekat with due date.. He asked me whether nak pegi terus tak hospital malam ni to get a clear advise?? I said why not kan??

By 7pm, WN reached home.. & went straight to Ampang Hospital.. Reached at ER, explained to the ER officer about my situation.. So he told me, he will check with the doctor in charge sebab I don't have the referral letter from the clinic stating my current condition.. After few minutes, the officer came back to us & said he will send us straight to Wad Bersalin for a further check up...

Lama sikit menunggu kali ni for the Gynae to come because the nurse told me that there is a serious case at the operation room... As usual the nurse asked me to past urine.. Kali ni she did CTG on me to check with my baby's condition for 20minutes.. The nurse told me, in my case, selalunya kalau baby still songsang doctor akan pursuade the parents to do the C-section, lagi2 la kalau 1st baby... Biasanya C-section will be held on the 37-38weeks of pregnancy..Biasalah to avoid further complications... Tapi, I kene jugak go through some stages before the c-section.. Most probably kalau my baby still kecik, they will try to rotate the baby ( susah nak sebut in the medical term, 'rotary...' something).. Kalau baby tak turn jugak, barula bedah..

Checked for WN at waiting room, told him the latest updates.. Asked him to pegi makan dulu... Nanti apa2 I inform him..

By 9pm.. The doctor came, alamak doktor lelaki.. kali ni bukan gynae... I think the nurse have already explained my condition before he came to see me.. He asked where did u get the ultrsound service?? So apa lagi, i buka la cerita from A-Z... He just smiled and said, " So u & husband confused la ni..?" He seems to understand with my 'dilemma'.. advised me not to worry too much.. He said something like this, "Its good that both of u decide to get opinion here immidiately, if I were the parents-to-be, I will do the same.." So he did the ultrasound scanning on me, he agreed that my baby still breech... Then, he said, he will refer my case to his boss to do another assesment on me and to advise the next step.. Few minutes , one lady doctor came, this one I x kenal.. Rupanya, its another Gynae.. The previous gynae was outstation... Very calm kind of person.. She read the maternal report from both GP.. She told me that she referring with private clinic's report.. and did another scanning with a different machine... She told me while doing this, she will know the baby's age, due date of delivery & etc.... Wish WN was there too...

Finally, both of them, confirmed that I'm 34weeks and 4 days in my pregnancy.. They confirmed it from the size of the baby's brain development and etc.. She advised to come back by 22nd May 2008, by then, my baby will be in her/his 36weeks ++.. Both of them explained what to expect on 22nd May.. Most probably, if the baby still in the same position, they will decide to attend C-section on me immidiately.. I tak terperanjat as I already expected it... :)

Lastly... they found out that I ada lagi infection, its just like previous infection... Thank God, dapat tahu... Both of them were quite upset, because they were wondering why does the KK's GP tak asses my condition secara terperinci.. Another thing is, they found out that I haven't done the MGTT test (test on my sugar level) for a second time.. Sepatutnya I should have done it by 30weeks in pregnancy.. I told them diorang tak cakap2 apa2 pon.. Terasa neglected sangat by KK's services... Both of them agak frust jugak to hear that.. Nasib baikla pegi hospital, kalau x, tak tahu apa nak jadi... Rasanya da malas nak buat check up at KK la lepas ni.. Harapkan pasal kene ada passport buku merah ni jela... :(

Almost 10pm... the doctor printed the discharge letter, medical report & gv prescription for my infection.. I can't do heavy exercises like house cleaning, cooking & etc anymore.. Kene dok relax kat rumah.. Advisable to have morning or evening walk, it will be less stress than house cleaning.. Both of them mentioning jangan lupa appointment 22nd May ni... Kali ni, husband buleh ikut sekali... I felt so much reliefed after seeing them..

I explained to WN with the doctor's advise... he seems reliefed too & so upset with KK's services.. Cuma date 22nd May ni dekat sgt with his next court hearing.. Both of us have to be extra-strongla..

Balik rumah.. both of us were so exhausted.. I cant sleep well, rasa sebu perut, maybe its the medicine's reaction kut.. Pagi ni barula OK..

Right now.. hanya berbekalkan doa & keredaan Allah swt.. Takdirkanlah jalan yang terbaik untuk aku & bakal anak aku.. InsyaALLAH.. Tuhan Maha Melindungi... :)

God is always with us...InsyaALLAH..

Salam..

Last Sunday .. Had a great weekend with SB & ES.. Sempat makan ikan bakar keli for lunch before to FELDA Sg. Kelah, Perak for the 1st time. Tima kaceh pada saudara Epol for the lunch treat...

Nak tengok gambar?? Too bad, the camera is with ES.. Tgh tunggu dia upload... hehehe

Sg. Kelah, that place is very famous with the hot spring & air gunung... So sempat la berendam kaki di hot spring yang ada disitu.. WN?? He tinggal di rumah, tak follow... He needs to sort out a lot of things before the court hearing the next day.. One more thing he has a meeting with his lawyer in the evening...O ya.. WN actually took charges towards his previous company, whereby he was forced to resigned under duress 3 years ago.. The details?? I don't have to mention it here... Serba salah pon ada jugak leaving him alone at home.. but, I know that he needs sometimes for himself :)

We had early dinner Ampang Oldtown White Coffee and meet up my dear WN there. Nmpak jugak kesugulan di mukanya... But all us of tried to cheer up, wlaupon kepenatan SB & ES terserlah.. We understand how WN's felt that time.. Mungkin I dont really favor Oldtown Coffee ni, so xde apa la sgt utk makan2 kat situ.. Thanks ya SB belanja kitorg minum..

We went straight home.. didn't ask WN that much of a question about 2morrow's agenda... Did the laundry & saw WN took a nap for a while on the couch.. After Isya' prayers, I sat beside WN, ask him to get a shower & offered him a cup of coffee... Barula nmpak dia tersenyum.. :) The he showed me the baby's pillow's cover that he bought at JJ, Mid valley.. sempat jugak la dia membeli brg utk anaknya... Did ask him to sleep early for the nite... I said to him like this :
MH: malam ni tido awal ya, solat & doa2 byk2... I realised u dont get enough sleep lately..
WN: (hanya tersenyum) without saying anything..

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Watched National Georaphic channel... I saw him doing solat hajat & berzikir in the room before went to sleep... Around 10pm, I just took a nap on the couch, so that I won't be distracting his attention .. By 12am (kot) he woke me up & asked me to sleep in the room..

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Monday 04052009.. WN woke up early in the morning... Asked him what to wear for the day.. Made him a cup coffee... Then few minutes later, he's ready to court for the 1st time...

Waiting for his updates.. but xde apa2.. His mom was the worriest person of the day , been calling me asking WN's updates.. In my heart I just pray that he will be strong & God will kurniakan what's BEST for him after all the pain & sufferings that he had gone through... I keep my self busy at home doing the the house chores... By 2pm, finally WN back at home while I was in a shower... He told me the session ended early & will be continued the next day..

He looked rather more relaxed as compared before.. Ye la da dapat momentum 'soal jawab' in court.. He shared his moment for the day.. Eventhough he's a bit stressed & frustrated sbb being provoked by his opponent's solicitor's Qs.. Selalunya bila one party's xde case, they will try at their best to play emotions rather than finding the facts... I told him keep strong, dont potray yourself that u are angry... I know that I'm not in your shoes baby, but at least I want u to know that are a strong person to deal this sort of things...

We had spagheti bolognese for early dinner.. We had a chat while watching TV... WN realised that I've been x senang duduk.. I complained to him that I'm so not comfortable these days eversince da sarat mengandung.. I told him feel like to INDUCE so the baby will keluar..By 11pm.. both of us.. zzzz..zzz...

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Tuesday 05052009 As usual both of us woke up by 6.20am... After Subuh prayers, WN is ready to court again for the day... He mentioned the session will be ended by evening...A bit longer than yesterday...

By 11am, while I was about to take my wuduk as being advised by my dear mom-in-law to baca Yassin & bykkan doa for WN.. I received sms from WN... According to his sms this time, he was really down after being soal bertubi2... Such a strong person like him, it must have been very BAD session for the day.. I replied him to keep strong, God is always with us.. espcially for golongan teraniaya, apalagi dianiaya oleh orang2 kafir seperti dia...

I did my tears while reciting Yassin.. feeling so sebak.. I can't imagine my dear hubby's situation rite now. I keep praying to ALLAH swt to give WN the most strength to go through for the day... Thats all I can do as being a wife & a mother to be to his child...

Feel so much reliefed after reciting Yassin.. doa banyak2 utk dia.. Semoga ALLAH swt akan memberi perlindungan, semangat & kemenangan yang hak kepadanya..

Around 1pm, received his sms again... updating me with latest status.. Alhamdulilah, eventhough he had a bad session for the day, he went through it smoothly.. The sesion will continue after lunch... But this time is his previous colleagues (witness) soal jawab session pulak..

Zohor pon da masuk... Its time for me to do the prayers.. Hope everything will be fine.. As I said.. ALLAHswt will always hear to his hamba's prayers.. Cuma kita sahaja yang kadang2 lalai utk DIA....

To all my blog readers, just pray that both of us will be blessed by HIM... I'm still look forward to hear his updates...

The latest look..

This is me with WN... Jalan2 at Taman Titiwangsa,KL lately..

besar kan perut? :)

So far... tgh tunggu hari.. Hope evrything will be fine... InsyaAllah...